Currently, I am learning a few things about living in pain.
I have been a relatively healthy person my whole life. Minor things would come and go but I enjoy a pretty sick and pain-free life.
This changed about eight weeks ago.
I have a “stiff shoulder.” I woke up with it a few months ago. I have limited movement in my left arm and pain associated with the swollen ligaments and tendons. Any sudden extended movement in the wrong direction is like a knife being jammed into my shoulder. I really don’t know how else to explain it.
How do you navigate living in pain while believing in the power of God to heal?
My first order of business was to go to Jesus and receive healing prayer and then head to the doctor. After chiropractic work, x-rays, an MRI and shoulder exercises, I am still in the same spot as I was 8 weeks ago.
I am seeking further treatment and will eventually get this thing behind me.
Lessons have surfaced from all of this and I want to pass them on to you. Again, this is coming from someone who has had a relatively pain-free life.
- Being in pain is an injustice and a nuisance. I cannot believe how much of a pain it is to live in pain. People live in pain continually. I have a whole new level of compassion and empathy for “pain-bearers”. It’s just not right.
- Being in pain is time-consuming and costly. Exercises up to 1.5 hours a day to work out this shoulder is needed. Also taking and buying medication can be costly. Repeat trips to the pharmacy is really not enjoyable. It’s consuming both time and money.
- Being in pain is annoying and distracting. Constant pain distracts me from thinking, planning and studying. Even writing this post is a chore. Though I press on it is flat-out distracting and bothersome.
I have lived a relatively pain-free life but this is a bit of an awakening. This condition will eventually work itself out. When? I really don’t know.
Here are a few things I will keep doing.
- I will keep receiving prayer for healing. When I am around staff and my Convergence family, I grab their hand and place it on my shoulder and tell them to pray for healing. I lay hands on myself and pray for the release of the healing anointing.
- I will keep seeing the medical community. God brings healing through the medical field so I will move through the steps. I will do physical therapy and have things monitored regularly.
- I will ask questions seeking solutions. I ask God questions regarding healing. I have been a bit challenged these days so this forces me to learn more from the Lord regarding healing.
- I will fight to stay positive about my healing. I can only imagine how people must feel about continuing to get prayer for a condition they have had for years, even decades. It’s hard to not cave into the thought of just learning to live with it. Grace to anyone who is in this boat.
- Lastly, I sense the Lord just wants me to thank Him for my healing. I am doing this out of a place of obedience and gratitude.
Psalm 103:2-3 ”Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,”
Jesus purchased our healing! It’s a “benefit” given to every believer. So I contend for what has been paid for. Though healing is still a mystery to me I trust Him as my Healer in spite of my pain.